Self-examination is a sacred practice that allows us to see both God and ourselves more clearly. During a recent presentation at our church, Lt. Colonel Wanda Acevedo spoke about the importance of inviting God into our inner world—not to shame us, but to bring transformation and healing.
Many of us struggle with shame, fear, or perfectionism, making it difficult to truly reflect on our thoughts and emotions. However, true healing begins when we bring our whole selves before God—our strengths, weaknesses, joys, and struggles.
Psalm 139 reminds us of this truth:
"You have searched me, Lord, and you know me... Before a word is on my tongue, you, Lord, know it completely." (Psalm 139:1-4)
When we allow God to reveal what is in our hearts, we create space for Him to work in us. We cannot surrender to God what we do not recognize within ourselves.
Lt. Colonel Acevedo emphasized the role of emotions in self-awareness. Research shows that most people can only name three emotions—anger, fear, and happiness—yet God has given us a rich emotional vocabulary to express ourselves fully.
The Psalms demonstrate raw honesty with God, showing that we can bring every emotion—joy, grief, frustration, and hope—into His presence. The Hebrew word for shame (“bosh”) appears 113 times in the Old Testament, 34 times in the Psalms alone. This teaches us that God invites us to be open and exposed before Him, rather than hiding in fear.
Self-examination is not just about acknowledging our flaws—it’s also about celebrating who God has made us to be. Psalm 139:13-14 reminds us that we are "fearfully and wonderfully made."
David’s words in Psalm 139:19-22 reveal the reality of human brokenness—our struggles with anger, resentment, and even hatred. Lt. Colonel Acevedo challenged us to bring our darkness before God, not to condemn us, but to heal and transform us.
"See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." (Psalm 139:24)
This practice of examining our conscience invites us to ask:
✅ Where was God present in my day?
✅ Did I ignore or resist His guidance?
✅ What emotions surfaced, and how did I respond?
The spiritual practice of self-examination is not about guilt—it’s about growing closer to God. When we invite Him into our thoughts, emotions, and struggles, we experience the freedom and transformation that only He can provide.
As you reflect on Psalm 139, take time this week to pray:
“Search me, God, and know my heart… lead me in the way everlasting.”
Let this be an invitation to greater self-awareness, healing, and trust in God’s unfailing love.